“I shall make use of thee to communicate Myself to My creatures, and to make known to them My Will.”
– Jesus to Sr. Benigna Consolata Ferrero
“My dear Sister,” Servant of God Sr. Benigna Consolata (d. Sept 1, 1916)
When I first came across Sr. Benigna Consolata, I was suffering terribly from scruples; my spiritual life could best be described as a vacillation between a tiresome attempt at perfection, and backsliding into mortal sin. At one point – and this is after I discovered Sr. Benigna Consolata – I abandoned the spiritual life entirely for close to a year, choosing to live in unrepentant mortal sin, rather than serve my God and Father. My ingratitude and malice grew daily; I abstained from the Sacraments, from prayer, from spiritual reading, and largely from good works; I lived only for myself. I was miserable.
Now, you might think that I am exaggerating. On the contrary.
Why, though, am I sharing these words with you? It is for this reason: to make known the love and mercy of God! His infinite love and mercy towards me is primarily what inspired me to make this blog; I wanted – and I still want – to share the joy of being forgiven; of loving God; of feeling His embrace. We were made for God; nothing else and no one else can satisfy our hearts.
Do you, perhaps, doubt that God loves you? Well, doubt no more! “But what I wish particularly to say to thee, My Benigna,” said Our Lord to Sr. Benigna Consolata, “is that the soul ought never to be afraid of God, because God is all-merciful; the greatest pleasure of the Sacred Heart of thy Jesus is to lead to His Father numerous sinners; they are My glory and My jewels. I love poor sinners so much!”
I know these words are true.
If you have even the slightest inclination to seek God, it is because He loves you. We cannot seek God without His grace; that is a theological and philosophical fact. Fear not, then, that God might reject you; fear not that you will be damned. Rather, give yourself to God like a little child; renew your confidence and love in Him at every moment; let His love be the Source of your actions; with Sr. Benigna, say to Him: “My Jesus, my most sweet Jesus, I believe in Thy love; though Thou shouldst slay me, I would believe in it still. Yes, my Jesus, if I saw myself hanging by a thread above hell, and this thread were held by Thy divine hand, I would in no wise fear; even though it should break, I would not be afraid, because Thou couldst tie it together again.”
My Benedictine Vocation
It is with great joy that I announce to you my decision to become a Benedictine monk as of late-March, 2016! I will be entering a traditional Benedictine monastery somewhere in Europe.
Is it a coincidence, perhaps, that I, the greatest of sinners, am entering the monastery during the Jubilee of Mercy? Is it a coincidence that 2016 is also the 100th anniversary of the death of Servant of God Sr. Benigna Consolata? I cannot say. But what I can say is this:
‘Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort.’ (2 Cor. 1:3)
Thank you, dear Lord, for your infinite mercy! Thank you, dear Sister Benigna, for your prayers, for your obedience in recording the revelations you received from Almighty God, and for your witness! And thank you, dear reader, for stopping by! If you have ever said a prayer for me or for the Littlest Souls blog, thank you, and may God bless you!
Please pray for my perseverance!
How to Love God (How to be Holy)
*The following revelations are taken from incredible biography of Sr. Benigna Consolata:
[Please pray that Sr. Benigna Consolata may be declared a “Venerable” in 2016, the 100th anniversary of her entrance into Eternal Life! Please pray that she will be raised to the Altars! If you make this an intention for your next Mass, God will remember even if you do not. Thank you, dear friend!]
Look at Jesus
- “Keep thy eye fixed on God.”
- “Now, in what does sanctity consist ? In becoming as far as possible the living image of thy Spouse. Copy Me, copy Me constantly, and therefore have the eyes of thy soul ever fixed upon thy Jesus.”
- “They should live of the Gospel, as they live on the air, on light, on food…”
- “I know what is good for thee; let Me act.”
- “Thou art walking in obscurity, it is true; but thou art not alone, I am with thee; abandon everything to me then, like a poor blind person who trusts in the guide with perfect confidence.”
Confidence in God
- “Confidence in thy Jesus, who loves thee so much, a loving confidence, a boundless confidence.”
- “Have an affection for recollection, silence and solitude; every beginning is difficult, especially when there is question of practicing virtue; but do not be afraid; thou shalt become strong through My grace, provided thou bury thy littleness in My Mercy.”
Charity in Words
- “Let thy words be a perfume of sweetness.”
- “One Ave Maria said without sensible fervor, but with a pure will in time of aridity, has much more value in My eyes, than an entire Rosary recited in the midst of consolations. Write this for the comfort of souls.”
- “The most precious gift I can make to My friends is that of the Cross. I send to the soul what costs it most, what it dreads most; this is the best means of making it advance.”
- “My Benigna, I am going to explain this great word, annihilation. Annihilation means death. A thought comes which pleases thee ; banish it, forget it, and it is the death of that thought; sacrifice a desire, and it is the death of that desire; when thou hast a will to do something and renouncest it, it is the death of that will; every act of death is an act of life, because the moment thou diest to nature thou livest to God.”
- “Humility will lead thee never to judge anyone; humility will lead thee to regard thyself as the servant of all; humility will lead thee ever to accuse thyself. When a soul has been introduced by Love into this profound abyss of humility, she walks securely and makes progress, for nothing can stop her.”
- “My Benigna, thou knowest a little thorn may make a great rent, but if one is careful to take it out immediately, it leaves scarcely a trace. When thou art afraid of having displeased me, say at once; My Jesus, if I have offended thee in anything, grant me the grace to repair it; and deign to enlighten me that another time I may better accomplish thy will.”
- “Praise God always for all the benefits I have bestowed upon thee.”
- “Elevate thy heart to God by continual acts of love.”
- “Intention most pure of pleasing God in all thou doest, in all thou sayest, in all thou thinkest, in all thou desirest.”
- (On June 13, 1915, the Feast of the Sacred Heart) Sr. Benigna Consolata writes: ‘He said to me in a sweet, sad tone: “My Benigna, give me souls!” The plaintive words of my Adorable Master moved me profoundly. — How shall I give Thee souls, my Jesus? — “By sacrifices,” He responded.’